Oh Goodness...

God has definitely been doing a work inside of me, that's for sure. Before coming here, my prayer was that God would reveal to me what I need to change about myself. Well, He has showed me and now the hard part is accepting it and trying to become more like Him.

God has shown me that I'm selfish, prideful, envious, angry, unforgiving, and definitely sinful. Those aren't exactly the Fruit of the Spirit... I have a lot of work to do and I'm asking God for the courage and strength to face the things that I've been putting off. As Janna said, this is a good thing that I'm realizing all of this because that means that my relationship with God is growing and He is answering my prayer. She's right, and I'm happy that God is showing me these things... At the same time though, it's hard to face sin head on and admit that I'm not as godly as I thought.

Lord, help me to be more like you, and continue to have patience with me as I work through this mess. I love you and am trying to change. God create in me a pure heart...

On a lighter note, Thanksgiving was good. We traveled to a city called Jaipur which is three and a half hours away from Delhi. We stayed for there for three days and celebrated Thanksgiving with about six other families in one house. No one was related, but everyone got together as one big family. These were families living in India and who are unable to go back to the states for the holidays. Janna and I stayed with a couple who are newly married and already living overseas serving. We arrived to their house the evening before Thanksgiving, and this was the first time meeting them and they were more than welcoming. We helped peel apples for an apple pie and helped smash potatoes. This was my first Thanksgiving away from home and it was hard, but God put so many loving people in my life to make me feel at home. It was a great Thanksgiving, even if we had chicken instead of turkey because to buy a turkey here is around 200 U.S dollars.

I can't express how thankful I am for God bringing so many wonderful people in my life, in both India and Nepal. I can't imagine going back home and not seeing these people again. I know that I will definitely be back to visit. God, thank you for all of these people who are becoming like family. And thank you for continuing to do a work in me... As hard as it is, I thank you for loving me enough to reveal things in my life that need to be changed so that my relationship with you may blossom. Amen.